||[Nov. 8th, 2007|11:47 pm]
so besides my crazy mystery health problems, things are going pretty good. It seems like school has definetly settled down for the first time all year. I'm a little bit scared about it, so i am trying to stay busy and find things to do so that I can stay ahead and not freak out like I did around midterms. My mood has definetly stabalized...and i don't know if thats cause of the pill or because of external events. But then again, the pill is bringing about all of these stomach problems also, so I dont' really know.
I feel like i'm in a really crazy mood latley, where I just want to go out dancing and go partying and what not. I want to hang out with friends, and have crazy adventures etc. Whenever I hear a crazy up-beat song, I think about Becky and I over the summer in Arizona when we would go crazy in the car listening to pump music and be acting like gangstas...even though we were totally white preppy girls. It was so much fun. I am so excited to see her over new years! We have all of these things that we want to do together, and I think it will be a lot of fun and just a nice change of pace. I love when I'm with her, we just get into these crazy situations and our personalities are really similar, but shes so awkward around people and i'm totally confrontational...so we make a really interesting combination. And then I come back here and then we have the employee party, which I need to find an ID for so that I can go out to the bars afterwards. Thats the only chance I have to get with Joe somehow...although I am hoping that something can happen before that. I feel like he just thinks that i'm not interested in him because hes a smoker and i'm too much of a good girl...which I guess is normally pretty true, but i would be willing to try it with him because hes got such a great personality and i love hanging out with him. There are just so many perfect opportunities for him to ask me out, and he doesn't! And its just like...come on, you flirt with me, and I would ask you out if I knew that you liked me, but if you really liked me, you would ask me out....so what is going on here? I think i'm going to talk to someone at work about him and see if that helps at all...probably won't, but we'll see.
My life has just been a little bit dull latley...I was really looking forward to last weekend, but then my stomach went crazy and decided to explode on me after 2 hours of drinking...NOT COOL. So hoepfully, this weekend will be better...even though I feel like everyone is going home this weekend and nothing really is going on. I want somethign exciting to happen.
Thats another thing, ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE NOW 21. so its like...they go and do their own things at the bars, and then i'm just here and not too many house parties are going on anymore. So they all go off and have a good time with their little 21+ click and here I am, doing nothing but writting on my live journal. thats pretty lame. I have three months left, which really does not seem that long compared to the fact that I have waited 20 years already...but it still is just not very good timing seeing as how I need to be 21 around new years. And then when I try to talk to people about getting a fake ID, they are all really shaddy about it, and everyone knows someone, but they can't get it from them...or something crazy like that. I think the best bet is to find someone who looks exactly like me so that it is a real ID, but just not really mine. but then you have to get them to go to the DMV and get another ID...which I would be willing to pay for and even pay more for their time to go and do it, but come ON! help a girl out here. I am so left out with everyone :( and they are all graduating after next semester, so basically I have like 3 months where everyone is 21. good times. and then everythings up in the air for next year and over the summer...have no idea what i'm going to do. And I am supposed to sign up for apartments, but I might be studying abroad or doing something else...i don't know. All i know is that i am NOT being a mentor next year. NO WAY JOSE.
I just want to hang out with my friends, have a good time, meet some fun guys and just...LET LOOSE. now that I actually have the time and energy to let loose...nothing is going on.